Motivation

For the past couple of weeks I have been putting off making my appointment with my surgeon and my nutritionist. I know that its something that I should do, but I feel like I have let it go for so long now that I'm honestly almost embarrassed to call. Its completely irrational, but I'm just worried about being looked at as irresponsible for not having made my appointment sooner, when I should have. Oh well, I'll get around to it one of these days soon.
I have been buying a ton of new clothes lately, and I know its something that I really should try to avoid doing when I still have so much left to lose. Before I had the surgery I was a tight size 28, and now I'm an 18. It feels good to be able to shop in regular stores again! I keep looking forward to going to the beach with my husband and daughter this summer, because I can only imagine how much better I will look by then, and the types of clothes I will be able to wear.
This truly has been an amazing 6 months, and I never ever thought I would lose as much as I already have this fast. 120lbs is a lot of weight to lose in a year, and I have managed to lose it in 6 months!!! I am still blown away by that fact. No matter what obstacles this surgery has thrown at me, I still consider this the best thing I could have ever done for myself.  Its absolutely worth it.
I do have a confession to make though... I have been slacking a little bit when it comes to going to the gym to work out. I have a gym membership at Bally's and I love it there, tons of different equipment, and even a  little play center to drop my daughter off at while I work out. I just haven't been able to find the motivation to go there lately. I have an exercise bike at home, and that is where I have been burning the calories, but I just know the workout is no where near as good as the one I would be getting at the actual gym. I'm trying to talk my husband (who doesn't need to lose any weight) into going with me tomorrow, because maybe having a workout buddy this time will re-spark my interest. He seems ok with the idea but isnt overly excited either. My daughter on the other hand is looking forward to going to the play center and getting some quality fun time in with other kids.
I WILL go tomorrow. I WILL. I need to use the elliptical, and do some weight training. After all I am paying for this membership and I really shouldn't let the money just go down the drain like this.
What does everbody else to do maintain they motivation? I've heard that some people keep a mental image in their mind of what they would like to look like and just focus on that, but the truth is that I have never had an image of what I would like to look like. Well not a realistic one at least. Every time a watch a movie, and see thin, attractive women, I think to myself that that is what I want to look like, but they are normally supermodel size, and I know that that is just not what I will look like. Who know, I guess with enough hard work anything is possible. We will just have to see. One thing is for sure though, I cant wait to see just how this story will end.